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In the long run, we're all dead

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Hi Tumblr, its been a while…

But I feel like my life is ending. I’m having a small mid-life crisis. 

I really just need to get my SHIT TOGETHER WTF. I never go to school anymore or if I do I go late which isn’t really helping me graduate on time. If I don’t hit 80% attendance by August 15th i’m getting kicked out. Bullshit right? I’m paying 11 fucking grand out of my own fucking pocket and you have to nerve to tell me that if I dont come every single day on time that you’re gonna kick me out? The fuck?! Fuck you cunts!!!!

In other news, I need money I need a new car, and I need to move out. I need to be unknown and happy in some beautiful place filled with beautiful people. I really have been thinking of moving out of state. If I don’t get out of Schenectady soon i feel like i never will. Its like a black hole that sucks you right the fuck in and it blows. 

I love my boyfriend, even though were both going through some realllllllllllllllllllllly hard times, especially him I love him. We argue and I threaten to break up with him every couple of months but it never lasts more than 24 hours. I can’t be away from him for too long. I literally just don't know. I don’t feel the same I feel sick and helpless and that's so fucking weird to me. I hate it. I never thought that I would end up like this. August is gonna make a whole year together and it doesn't even feel like we've been together that long. I’m just lucky to find someone who puts up with my shit lol. My attitude and outlook on life has done a complete 360, I’m not a crazy bitch anymore, sometimes… lol I actually want to work out get in shape and do some shit even though ill never give up sleeping in. I just feel so happy with him he motivates me and makes me want to go somewhere in life. 

I need a job, seriously. I love my job to a certain extent. Its just havvoc because no one really knows what theyre doing half the time…But I just want to for 4-10 monday through friday and even saturday and make over 300 bucks i can live off that till i graduate and start my career but thatll never happen 

life blows man, life blows.

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She’s my best friend infront of her I cry, she’s my best friend so why I gotta lie? Man I swear I see my daughter in her eyes, is that why i cant take mind off her? It feels good when i know she there, it feels good when i know shes here. I think i’d lose it if she disappears; miss her when she ain’t with me so when she is gone shes effecting me.
~Alion

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blackfashion:

In an interview with The Women of Hip-Hop, the pitbull in a dress, Eve revealed her plans to release a buzz single later this month, with her upcoming album Lip Lock. It’s been nearly a decade since Eve released her last album Eve-Olution, 

She also touched on other topics like which femcee she would put on a record and more.

On new female rappers: “I like Azealia Banks. I think her style is dope. If you listen to her lyrics, she knows how to wordplay and I think that’s cute. I’m not really into the Iggy Azalea chick. I can’t really fuck with her music, but her look is crazy. I just can’t believe it.”

On her dream collaboration: “Lauryn Hill has always been my one dream collaboration. She to me is so dope lyrically. Unfortunately, she’s just in a place right now mentally, but that would be a dream come true.”

On which five female MCs she would put on a record: “I would definitely have to get Missy [Elliott]. I would definitely have to do Kim ’cause I never got to do a record with Kim. Azealia Banks, I like her. A lot of people want me to hate on Nicki and say crazy things about her. I ain’t got nothing to say about her. Until somebody names me by name, then I don’t feel like nobody [is talking] about me. I wouldn’t have a problem putting her on a record.”

On the Lil’ Kim vs. Nicki Minaj feud: “It’s not about publicity. It’s about wanting that respect. I think maybe that’s where Kim is coming from, like, you’re doing your thing right now and no one can take that away from you, Nicki—we all see it—but at the end of the day, if it wasn’t for Kim, she wouldn’t be here and that shit is real.”

 Check out the full interview below.

(via blackfashion)

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FINALLY

bodyandwords:

unconsciousminds:

A job I want, that’s going to pay me what I deserve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

The bad side, I have to take a week off school for training… ;[

it’ll be so worth it though, paychecks plus tips actually make you not broke haha.

Lol I know I miss working at a restaurant, idk if olive garden does tips for host though. I applied for everything but he wanted me to serve i told him id rather start as a host cause well everyone knows my memory is horrible lmao i cant remember their menu at least not now.

(Source: unconsciousminds-blog-blog, via bodyandwords-blog-blog)

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FINALLY

A job I want, that’s going to pay me what I deserve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

The bad side, I have to take a week off school for training… ;[